Born from a prayer for saving

A mother’s heart in womb

She held a candle to the window

Light flickering from the room

That, the only place she knew

So down on her knees she went

To implore for the way

To take what she had

Give better

Give good, and make it okay

 

He whispered in her ear

My child

I made you with a purpose

In my mind

You might wonder how you shine

I’ll show you your light in time

Be patient, you’ll see

Why your heart is this way

I’ll teach you gentle

I’ll show you kind

When you see your reason

You’ll know

Be patient my child, you’ll see

 

God’s grace had heard her plea

He had many plans in place

She wouldn’t know the road just yet

This would be shown in time

“Patience”, he said, “my child”

You must learn

Many years passing

Before the answer would be given

A long road driven

Still, she never stopped asking

 

He whispered in her ear

My child

I made you with a purpose

In my mind

You might wonder how you shine

I’ll show you your light in time

Be patient, you’ll see

Why your heart is this way

I’ll teach you gentle

I’ll show you kind

When you see your reason

You’ll know

Be patient my child, you’ll see

 

The same prayer fell upon his ears

Show me the way please

I don’t know what lies out there

Give purpose to these tears

Out of his wisdom

He lit the candle with his fire

What was shown was from the past

What she had not known

The road had always been there

You will not be alone

 

He whispered in her ear

My child

I made you with a purpose

In my mind

You might wonder how you shine

I’ll show you your light in time

Be patient, you’ll see

Why your heart is this way

I’ll teach you gentle

I’ll show you kind

When you see your reason

You’ll know

Be patient my child, you’ll see

 

The answer to the why

The beauty of the how

Shown brightly as the stars

Out the window on that first night

Only after that prayer was past on

Down the family line

To the one born from a prayer for saving

Did the reasons become clear

She was guided the whole time

From the heavens above

They will come for you, my child

They will come for you with love

 

He whispered in her ear

My child

I made you with a purpose

In my mind

You might wonder how you shine

I’ll show you your light in time

Be patient, you’ll see

Why your heart is this way

I’ll teach you gentle

I’ll show you kind

When you see your reason

You’ll know

Be patient my child

Now you see

I have now shown you your way

Your many tears were not in vain

This is your reason

You were always part of my plan

It just needed time to work out

From the moment it began

Everywhere I look holds meaning

Stories on the walls

Stories in the cabinets

Stories from the clothes

How many hands

have held this

Same deck of cards

Lost and gained a nickel fortune

Over pots of homemade soup

How many times has this place

Soothed a tired soul

How I wish I could listen in

Share laugh or two

Throw my arms around your mama

And thank your father to his face

 

Will we be color … in a “will be” time

Like the days of black and white

Will we be albums tagged on screens

Like cursive on the back,

seen in candle light

Will our time be marked in ink…..

Alongside the others, a lifetime right

Will our names carry on forever

After we are gone….

I want my picture there beside you

Your brand on my heart

 

I wanna be your white tail

I wanna be the one you hunt

No blood trail needed

Your arrow found my heart

I dropped on the spot

I wanna be your gold medal

You can hang me on the wall

Can I be the one in the record book

Your proudest one yet

I wanna make your year

Your years to come, to birth

Can I be the one that makes it worth

You don’t have to chase me

I’ll come bed down by your tree

 

Will we be color … in a “will be” time

Like the days of black and white

Will we be albums tagged on screens

Like cursive on the back,

seen in candle light

Will our time be marked in ink…..

Alongside the others, a lifetime right

Will our names carry on forever

After we are gone…..

I want my picture there beside you

Your brand on my heart

 

You said I’d love this place

I knew I would, hearing you speak

It cast its’ spell over me

The wind through the trees

The sunlight shining down

Even as snow falls to the ground

Your eyes, clear and blue

In the place you love

Your heart burning bright

Fingers and toes numb

Here, my heart fell in love with you

I’d spend a thousand lifetimes

Life with skin, in death with spirit,

My heart whispers… I do

And I love you…

 

Will we be color … in a “will be” time

Like the days of black and white

Will we be albums tagged on screens

Like cursive on the back,

read in candle light

Will our time be marked in ink….

Alongside the others, a lifetime right

Will our names carry on forever

After we are gone…..

I want my picture there beside you

Your brand on my heart

 

I want my skin next to yours

I want my heart close to yours

I want to lay my head

Forever on your chest

I want my dust with yours

When we come to rest

All these stories around me

I want to be in too

I’m here with you

Sometimes I can’t believe

I should pinch myself

But I’d wake up in this dream

A life with you, in this place

My picture there beside you

In the family frame

 

Will we be color … in a “will be” time

Like the days of black and white

Will we be albums tagged on screens

Like cursive on the back,

read in candle light

Will our time be marked in ink….

I want my picture there beside you

Your brand on my heart

Can I hold your hand

Can I pick you up

I’ll carry you over the cracks

Gaping wide on your path

Can I go before you

And fill them in

So your stride is flat

Can I see the distance for you

You can climb the step

When only you’re ready to

Can I be the railing beside you

Can I be your eyes

To judge the depth

Can I be your ears

To turn you away

At the hint of collapse

 

I wanna fly for you

I wanna be your wings

I wanna stop it all

Before it crumbles you

I wanna give you all your dreams

Never let a harsh word

take you down

Never let evil touch

I wanna take it all away

I am not God

I am only me

I fly with you instead

You are my heart

The reason I breathe

 

I wish I could be your sense

Of justice

In this unjust world

I wish I could be your avenger

Before you feel a wrong

I wish I could tell you all truth

Before you hear a lie

I wish I could wrap your feelings up

In my heart like at first

Where your days began

Safe from all the hurt

I wish I could fix a broken heart

Before it was even broken

And torn apart

My dreams from your start

 

I wanna fly for you

I wanna be your wings

I wanna stop it all

Before it crumbles you

I wanna give you all your dreams

Never let a harsh word

take you down

Never let evil touch

I wanna take it all away

I am not God

I am only me

I fly with you instead

You are my heart

The reason I breathe

 

I will walk beside you

And give you all my worth

I will take a step back

When you ask

Allow you to explore the world

I will not be far behind

My eyes will still be watching

My ears will still be hearing

I will run to you if you trip

I’ll hold you tight

And soothe your cries

Wipe your tears as I’ve done

All of your years

I’ll always be your mama

The one that loves you most

I cannot walk for you

I can help you guide your coast

Listen to me my heart

Do not let this world shake you

To the core

Stand up tall

In the face of evil

Do not let hate kill

The beauty of your

Innocent heart

 

I wanna fly for you

I wanna be your wings

I wanna stop it all

Before it crumbles you

I wanna give you all your dreams

Never let a harsh word

take you down

Never let evil touch

I wanna take it all away

I am not God

I am only me

I fly with you instead

You are my heart

The reason I breathe

I see you coming around

I see you talking to the town

I see your number on the card

I asked for in the backyard

I had to look away

The moment I came your way

There was something about your eyes

That gave me away inside

It was the way you looked at me

I was instantly at ease

At the same time

You brought my heart

to my knees

 

Never thought red would be my favorite color

Never thought green would be in my eyes

Never thought I'd be sneaking a look at her finger

To find out what lies behind the guise

Never thought the hum of an engine

On a Thursday dawn early morning

Would cause my world to turn around

Counting each minute, hour

Yeah, I never thought fresh cut grass

Would smell so good

 

The look on your face

That gaze toward your work

Your serious chin like stone

Your eyes glance over alone

I saw, but I couldn't look

My eyes would reveal

And I'd be on the hook

I pretend not to see you

But I come out every Thursday dawn

To get my once a week heart

Jumpstarted on the lawn

Pinecones and sticks

Have become my kicks

 

Never thought red would be my favorite color

Never thought green would be in my eyes

Never thought I'd be sneaking a look at her finger

To find out what lies behind the guise

Never thought the hum of an engine

On a Thursday dawn early morning

Would cause my world to turn around

Counting each minute, hour

Yeah, I never thought fresh cut grass

Would smell so good

 

That man, he's got my number

But I've got your number too

I could call you anytime

What should I do

I could smile at you, I could wink at him

Brush up against you

Will he think me too bold

And draw back cold

Or will you think me cute

We both know there's that look

We've seen it in our eyes

The lingering too long

The long goodbyes

 

Never thought red would be my favorite color

Never thought green would be in my eyes

Never thought I'd be sneaking a look at her finger

To find out what lies behind the guise

Never thought the hum of an engine

On a Thursday dawn early morning

Would cause my world to turn around

Counting each minute, hour

Yeah, I never thought fresh cut grass

Would smell so good

 

Now, fresh cut grass

I smell it all the time

Still when Thursday dawn

Early morning comes along

My heart skips a beat

I walk to the yard

I see your face

I'm in my bare feet

Instead of hide my eyes

I look straight in yours

The stars did us right

No more goodbyes

 

Never thought red would be my favorite color

Never thought green would be in my eyes

Never thought I'd be sneaking a look at her finger

To find out what lies behind the guise

Never thought the hum of an engine

On a Thursday dawn early morning

Would cause my world to turn around

Counting each minute and hour

Yeah, I never thought fresh cut grass

Would smell so good

There is just this thing

About me

I feel so hard

My heart is wide open

Rises up

Crashes down

I feel it all

Watching and waiting

To see the road before me

For the next thing

To come

Will it break me

It’s only my choice

No one gets to make it for me

It’s on me

 

I choose to rise

I choose to not let it get me down

I fall, get back up

I choose for good to overcome

What tries to bring me low

Out of the depths of darkness

The light always shines through

Open your eyes and see

What has been made for you

And I rise….

I choose to rise…

 

Through the years

One thing after another

Broken hearts and broken dreams

Could have ripped me apart

I kept hoping

I kept believing

There was reason for the

Distance, my dreams

It seemed

I felt like I was always pushing

For the next answer

To be shown

Faith to be realized

Asking “show me the way”

 

I choose to rise

I choose to not let it get me down

I choose for good to overcome

What tries to bring me low

Out of the depths of darkness

The light always shines through

Open your eyes and see

What has been made for you

And I rise….

I choose to rise…

 

I had to be humbled

I had to accept imperfection

Perfect is in imperfect

It just keeps us on our toes

There’s never an easy way

Nothing good comes from the

Road commonly taken

Only the path with stones and holes

Makes us who we are

Each day we strive to do better

We learn to fall

But the best thing of all

Is we learn … to rise

 

I choose to rise

I choose to not let it get me down

I choose for good to overcome

What tries to bring me low

Out of the depths of darkness

The light always shines through

Open your eyes and see

What has been made for you

And I rise….

I choose to rise…

 

Expectation is always there

Obligation always present

I’m running, sprinting

Hoping to be ahead

Taking a moment

To absorb

What I’ve willed around me

A dream evolving

Not what was originally planned

Still beautiful

Never let the hate destroy the beauty

Mourn the loss

But rise above

Pick yourself back up

And rise above,

Rise above …

 

I choose to rise

I choose to not let it get me down

I choose for good to overcome

What tries to bring me low

Out of the depths of darkness

The light always shines through

Open your eyes and see

What has been made for you

And I rise….

I choose to rise…

And I’ll rise…

[verse 1]

Where did it go

I ask myself all the time

Am I the same

Do I busy myself

Too much to let you in

Am I allowing you space

In this life by my side

Do I set aside enough time

Love for you

Or do I get caught up

And you feel like you don’t

Matter to me anymore

 

(Bridge)

I overthink

I ask you your feelings

I ask how you are

A million times over and over

 

(Chorus)

I won’t ask you to love me

Even though I want to

I won’t beg you to hold me

Even though I’m dying to

I want it all

I want you to want to

I want you to smile at me

The smile I saw at first

The words I read at

The beginning

The fire in your eyes

At the start

I won’t ask for it all back

It should’ve never left

….to begin with….

 

[Verse 2]

I know you are tired

I know you wish it were

More time for me and you

I want that too

I know you step aside

As I carry on with all I have

I know you want more

I know you’ve lived this life before

A lifetime ago

I’ve stopped asking for you

To live it again

So I take over

Make decisions on my own

Only wishing to make them with you

I am not meant to be the one

To carry it all alone

I want to share everything

To be everything to you…..

 

(Bridge)

I overthink

I ask you your feelings

I ask how you are

A million times over and over

 

(Chorus repeat)

I won’t ask you to love me

Even though I want to

I won’t beg you to hold me

Even though I’m dying to

I want it all

I want you to want to

I want you to smile at me

The smile I saw at first

The words I read at

The beginning

The fire in your eyes

At the start

I won’t ask for it all back

It should’ve never left

….to begin with….

 

[Verse 3]

I ask you if your happy

You say you are

You don’t look happy

to me

I ask you what you want

All of the time

I feel like your settling

Trying to be content

With this life in your prime

I can give you it all

I can offer all my love

That’s what brought you close

From our start

I will bend for you

I will let you in

I will make you my forever

I just don’t know what you want

We live here together

But we live here apart

Some of that I can fix

I have always been a mama

That will always be…

There’s room for you too…

 

(Bridge)

I overthink

I ask you your feelings

I ask how you are

A million times over and over

 

(Chorus repeat)

I want you to ask me to love you

I want you to ask me to hold you

Even though you don’t want to ask

I want it all

I want you to want to

I want you to smile at me

The smile I saw at first

The words I read at

The beginning

The fire in our eyes

At the start

I want you to ask for it all back

It should’ve never left

….to begin with….

 

I want to ask you to love me

I want to ask you to hold me

I want to be together in this life

I want to ask you to let me in

 

I want you to ask me

To be your forever

 

[verse 1]

I am a mama

I am a lover

I am a friend

I am a fighter

I am a healer

I’ve learned to bend

I won’t break, I won’t fall

I’ll get right back up

And carry it all…

 

(Chorus)

I learned to stand on my own

I learned to fight it alone

I learned to bury those fears

And fight back the tears

I learned to wake up each day

No matter what pain life

brought my way

Now stronger and softer

I learned no one’s going

To do it for me

I learned to be myself

Love myself

 

Be the woman I was made

To be … all along

 

[Verse 2]

For as long as I can remember

My dreams have been

Family, love, children

Pushing, striving

To meet that goal

In the end

Losses along the way

But I won’t let that get me down

Taking a moment to mourn

Find the light

And then be okay…

 

(Chorus Repeat)

I learned to stand on my own

I learned to fight it alone

I learned to bury those fears

And fight back the tears

I learned to wake up each day

No matter what pain life

brought my way

Now stronger and softer

I learned no one’s going

To do it for me

I learned to be myself

Love myself

 

Be the woman I was made

To be …all along …

 

[Verse 3]

They never said it would be easy

Dream the impossible

Make it live

Everyone has struggles

Dreams are made

To change

Keep growing, keep loving

The biggest win of all

Keeping a soft heart

Keep kindness, keep grace

Find what’s good

Do not let hate win….

 

(Chorus Repeat)

I learned to stand on my own

I learned to fight it alone

I learned to bury those fears

And fight back the tears

I learned to wake up each day

No matter what pain life

brought my way

Now stronger and softer

I learned no one’s going

To do it for me

I learned to be myself

Love myself

 

Be the woman I was made

To be … all along

 

(Outro)

I aim to be soft

I aim to be strong

I aim to be the woman

I was meant to be…

 

I’m down on bended knee

Looking up to the heavens

Above

Give me courage

Give me strength

Give me your spirit

To be the woman I

Was made to be

Help me see

Help me

 

To live with love….

 

Chorus Repeat)

I learned to stand on my own

I learned to fight it alone

I learned to bury those fears

And fight back the tears

I learned to wake up each day

No matter what pain life

brought my way

Now stronger and softer

I learned no one’s going

To do it for me

I learned to be myself

Love myself

 

Be the woman I was made

To be … all along

 

 

It’s gotta be lonely

Inside there

all by yourself

Carrying heaviness of

Everything

I know you say

I have enough

To hold

You’re not adding

To it

I’ll tell ya now, my love,

My darling …

You’re not adding

Anything I haven’t seen yet

 

I’m gonna tear down

Those walls

Put up a long time ago

I’m gonna let myself in

I’m going to break

Every single piece

I wanna see you

All of you

There is nothing

I cannot take

Let the flood roll in

Held behind the walls

…..

I’m gonna tear down…

Those walls…

 

Your mastery of

Self control

Is unmatched

I’ve never seen

Anything like it

Your ability to walk away

Any time it strays

Your power over your heart

To pull it back in

Never letting hurt

Back in

How it is so easy

For you

It’s probably not

Your face gives it away

 

I’m gonna tear down

Those walls

Put up a long time ago

I’m gonna let myself in

I’m going to break

Every single piece

I wanna see you

All of you

There is nothing

I cannot take

Let the flood roll in

Held behind the walls

….

I’m gonna tear down…

Those walls…

 

I’ve waited my lifetime

To meet you

To know you

I’m not asking you

To be afraid

I’m asking to know you…

I want to know you

What really is inside

Your dreams, your fears,

All held behind those walls

I’m not asking to change you

I’m asking to know you

 

I’m lighting a match

I’m starting a fire

I’m going to fuel it

With my love

I’m going to watch it

I’m going to fan the flames

I’m going to send it….

 

To those walls….

 

I’m gonna tear down

Those walls

Put up a long time ago

I’m gonna let myself in

I’m going to break

Every single piece

I wanna see you

All of you

There is nothing

I cannot take

Let the flood roll in

Held behind the walls

….

I’m gonna tear down…

Those walls…

 

There’s so much inside you

There’s so much to you

You’re not as simple

As you tell me

I know there’s more….

More to you

That you keep …

 

I’m gonna tear down

Those walls

Put up a long time ago

I’m gonna let myself in

I’m going to break

Every single piece

I wanna see you

All of you

There is nothing

I cannot take

Let the flood roll in

Held behind the walls

….

I’m gonna tear down…

Those walls…

 

I’m gonna tear down …..

Down those walls…..

They’re gonna come down

 

[Verse 1]

Why do I feel

So hard

Why is my heart

This way

Exposing the edges

Ready to fray

Why do I believe

Every single time

Why do I not turn away

 

(Bridge)

Leaving me open

Laid bare for the taking

Giving and hoping

Finally it’ll be….

 

(Chorus)

And it crashes down

Buries me under

It’s pushes me over

The edge

Crashing thunder

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to want

Just a little bit more

Just a little bit closer

To the all that I give

Am I just too much

Too soon

Too impatient

Will I ever find it

Will I ever find what

I’m looking for

 

[Verse 2]

I am not asking for perfect

I am not asking for change

I am asking for love

I am asking for deep

My heart is not cheap

Throw your money away

You can keep it all

It means nothing to me

I’ve gone without

More times than I can count

I am tired, I am waiting

Waiting for …

Something I don’t know

 

(Bridge)

Leaving me open

Laid bare for the taking

Giving and hoping

Finally it’ll be….

 

(Chorus Repeat)

And it crashes down

Buries me under

It’s pushes me over

The edge

Crashing thunder

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to want

Just a little bit more

Just a little bit closer

To the all that I give

Am I just too much

Too soon

Too impatient

Will I ever find it

Will I ever find what

I’m looking for

 

[Verse 3]

I think I deserve a

Little bend my way

I think I deserve a

Little trying today

I’ve crossed mountains

And bridges

Looking, just waiting

Hoping, just dreaming

Waiting for another

To understand …

To be the one who

Wants my love

And wants to give it back

 

I tell myself

Not this time

I’m keeping my heart in

I’m keeping it close

I can’t bear another break

I can’t take another

Betrayal

I just can’t do it

I just can’t make it stay back

And here I go again…

 

(Bridge)

Leaving me open

Laid bare for the taking

Giving and hoping

Finally it’ll be….

 

(Chorus Repeat)

And it crashes down

Buries me under

It’s pushes me over

The edge

Crashing thunder

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to want

Just a little bit more

Just a little bit closer

To the all that I give

Am I just too much

Too soon

Too impatient

Will I ever find it

Will I ever find what

I’m looking for

 

(Outro)

I’ve been called too sensitive

Call me what you want

I’ve been called intense

Call me what you want

Stop telling me that I am

Too hard to please

I just need the little things

 

When I only want to be

The one you look at with those eyes

The one you need with your heart

The one you love forever …

 

(Bridge)

Leaving me open

Laid bare for the taking

Giving and hoping

Finally it’ll be….

 

(Chorus Repeat)

And it crashes down

Buries me under

It’s pushes me over

The edge

Crashing thunder

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to want

Just a little bit more

Just a little bit closer

To the all that I give

Am I just too much

Too soon

Too impatient

Will I ever find it

Will I ever be someone’s only

Someone’s only love

[verse 1]

It’s funny how things change

As we grow

It’s funny how important

Changes

The more we know

Life throws our way

Blessings, challenges

Impossible and possible

Choices become greater

Lines become straighter

 

(Bridge)

How did I get here

Where have I been

Just yesterday

I was dreaming up dreams …..

 

(Chorus)

If I had three wishes

What would I wish for

If I had only three choices

Would it be hard to choose

Maybe yesterday

It would have been

Today, I know…

I know

I would choose happy

For all who I love

I would choose healthy

Inside and out

I would choose …

Home

For me and my own

 

[Verse 2]

Just this morning

My little one asked me:

“Mama,

if you had three wishes

What would they be

I turned it around

And asked the same

Her answer was beautiful

It gave her away

She said:

“Mama, I’d choose to play,

I’d wish to stay with you

each day,

I wish to eat cake for each meal

Is that okay?”

So innocent, so pure

A smile came to my heart

“Of course,

my little darling”….

 

(Bridge)

How did I get here

Where have I been

Just yesterday

I was dreaming up dreams …..

 

(Chorus repeat)

If I had three wishes

What would I wish for

If I had only three choices

Would it be hard to choose

Maybe yesterday

It would have been

Today, I know…

I know

I would choose happy

For all who I love

I would choose healthy

Inside and out

I would choose …

Home

For me and my own

 

(Outro)

My little one

I wish I could keep you here

In this place

The place where wishes

Are simple and pure

I think I have the answer….

 

Give me your wishes

Give me your trust

Pass your choices onto me

I promise mine will

…. give you your three…..

 

I was you once… a long time ago

 

(Bridge)

How did I get here

Where have I been

Just yesterday

I was dreaming up dreams …..

 

(Chorus repeat)

If I had three wishes

What would I wish for

If I had only three choices

Would it be hard to choose

Maybe yesterday

It would have been

Today, I know…

I know

I would choose happy

For all who I love

I would choose healthy

Inside and out

I would choose …

Home

I would wish home…

For me and my own …

[Verse 1]

You think you’re gettin one

over on me

You think I don’t notice

We do it all your way

You think I don’t hear

What you say

When you think I’m not near

I watch your face

You think a lot of yourself

Don’t you…

 

(Bridge)

You think you’ve got me

Under lock and key

But you don’t know…

You really don’t know…

 

(Chorus)

Don’t mistake my sweetness

for weakness

Don’t mistake my silence

for blindness

Don’t think my kindness

Is mindless

I’ve had enough

I’m over it

My heart is over you

I’m walking out that door

I’m already gone

 

[Verse 2]

It started out different

On the same path

You smiled at me

Bought me flowers

Opened my door

Respected my heart

Far from the aftermath

How does something go so wrong

I watched and waited

For so long

Hoping it would go back

It never does….

It never does….

 

(Bridge)

You think you’ve got me

Under lock and key

But you don’t know…

You really don’t know…

 

(Chorus repeat)

Don’t mistake my sweetness

for weakness

Don’t mistake my silence

for blindness

Don’t think my kindness

Is mindless

I’ve had enough

I’m over it

My heart is over you

I’m walking out that door

I’m already gone

 

[Verse 3]

I needed to save me

Not to fix you

I needed to find me

What I lost on the inside

I want to see the light

And not be stuck

I’ve been good

unfortunately

At numbing the pain

Patching my heart back up

Pulling out my lidocaine

Moving along

 

(Outro)

I’m unbinding my ties

I’m moving along

I don’t know where

Anywhere but here…

 

(Bridge)

You think you’ve got me

Under lock and key

But you don’t know…

You really don’t know…

 

(Chorus repeat)

Don’t mistake my sweetness

for weakness

Don’t mistake my silence

for blindness

Don’t think my kindness

Is mindless

I’ve had enough

I’m over it

My heart is over you

I’m walking out that door

I’m already gone

 

I hope you said your goodbyes

I’m already gone

 

 

[Verse 1]

I wanna take you on a ride

On the back of my bike

Hold onto me tight

I won’t drive too fast

Black Betty will treat you right

I couldn’t wait for

Curvy roads, forest pines

Two tires hugging blacktop

Beautiful sky in the backdrop

 

(Bridge)

Breathing in your scent

There’s just something

About you, something

I can’t get outta my head

 

(Chorus)

The wind

Blowing my hair back

Like I’m on the racetrack

Sun shining down

Way better than a ride

In a Cadillac

Rocking to my favorite

Music track

Wouldn’t trade it for the world

Behind you, sliding closer

My head on your shoulder

There’s nothing better

Than this….

 

Please God…

Let this day not end

Make today, make this day

The rest of my life …

Make this ticket one-way

 

[Verse 2]

How can one day

Make me feel this way

I’ve been waiting to feel alive

For all of my life

You lit my fire

You breath air Into my lungs

Like the right pressure

In those two tires

I am floating, flying

But standing on

Solid ground

Beside you

Sitting behind you

I just can’t get enough of you …

 

(Bridge)

Breathing in your scent

There’s just something

About you, something

I can’t get outta my head

 

(Chorus repeat)

The wind

Blowing my hair back

Like I’m on the racetrack

Sun shining down

Way better than a ride

In a Cadillac

Rocking to my favorite

Music track

Wouldn’t trade it for the world

Behind you, sliding closer

My head on your shoulder

There’s nothing better

Than this….

 

Please God…

Let this day not end

Make today, make this day

The rest of my life …

Make this ticket one-way

 

[Outro]

Turns out that day

Got to you too

Take me out to see the sunset

Rev that engine

Two fingers down

Keep two wheels on the ground

I’m your number one, only girl

That seat is mine

For the rest of time

Riding under the sunshine

 

(Bridge)

Breathing in your scent

There’s just something

About you, something

I can’t get outta my head

 

(Chorus repeat)

The wind

Blowing my hair back

Like I’m on the racetrack

Sun shining down

Way better than a ride

In a Cadillac

Rocking to my favorite

Music track

Wouldn’t trade it for the world

Behind you, sliding closer

My head on your shoulder

There’s nothing better

Than this….

 

Please God…

Let this day not end

Make today, make this day

The rest of my life …

Make this ticket one-way

 

 

[Verse 1]

You almost had me

Had me convinced

I almost lost myself

I almost started to fall

I almost started to accept

It all

I nearly plunged into that sea

Almost started to be…

Believe me

One day I’m the best

The next I’m the worst

Like some sort of test

How much can I take on

How much can be me

 

(Bridge)

I started to doubt myself

Question myself

Lose myself….

 

(Chorus)

I’m not the villain in your story

I don’t want that glory

I don’t want that honor

I won’t read those lines

I won’t play that role

It’s yours

You can keep it

You can hold it

It’s not mine

It never was

It was never mine

 

Your real is a different real

It’s not the truth

You remember the story

Only to self soothe

You’re looking to place blame

On everyone but yourself

Not everything is a fight

Not everything is done with spite

I’m not your anger’s

Resting place

I don’t want that space

Now that I’m the only one left

I don’t want a part

In your constant unrest

That’s not me

It was never me

 

(Bridge)

I started to doubt myself

Question myself

Lose myself….

 

(Chorus repeat)

I’m not the villain in your story

I don’t want that glory

I don’t want that honor

I won’t read those lines

I won’t play that role

It’s yours

You can keep it

You can hold it

It’s not mine

It never was

It was never mine

 

[Outro]

So, I walk away

I distance myself

I choose to not answer in kind

I am over defending myself

I’m done with excuses

I won’t listen to the storm

Anymore….

I’m not hearing anymore…

 

(Bridge)

I started to doubt myself

Question myself

Lose myself….

 

(Chorus repeat)

I’m not the villain in your story

I don’t want that glory

I don’t want that honor

I won’t read those lines

I won’t play that role

It’s yours

You can keep it

You can hold it

It’s not mine

It never was

It was never mine

 

It was never mine

The call came through

On a Tuesday evening just

A little after seven

That I’d be meeting you tomorrow

I’d be your mama

I’d be the one you come to

I’d be the one to love you

The rest of my days

The one to teach you the

Many ways of love and life

How to be,

live to love

And find out how to find your free

 

Someday you’ll know

The depth of my love for you

Someday you’ll know

We saved each other

Someday you’ll know

The sleepless nights

Became for the right reason

Someday you’ll know

How God blessed us this season

 

My dreams had taken a shot

years along the way

Daddy and I had tried

God had different plans

He saw you coming, though

Saved us, knowing

we’d be your biggest fans

Oh, our sweet baby

You are so beautiful

Our rainbow after the rain

Our love had not been in vain

Your little blonde fuzz

Blue eyes shining bright

Love at first sight

 

Someday you’ll know

The depth of my love for you

Someday you’ll know

We saved each other

Someday you’ll know

The sleepless nights

Became for the right reason

Someday you’ll know

How God blessed us this season

 

The night we got the call

I could not hold back my tears

My prayers had been heard

All these years

To open our hearts

To a little one who needed love

Our family goals and dreams

Answered from above

A child not by blood,

But through love

Our daughter, our blessing

We will be your wings forever

Our hearts are yours to hold

In our family fold

 

Someday you’ll know

The depth of my love for you

Someday you’ll know

We saved each other

Someday you’ll know

The sleepless nights

Became for the right reason

Someday you’ll know

How God blessed us this season

 

You are so tiny now

Just a little bit over seven pounds

You will grow so fast before us

Time will pass so quickly,

I know

I cherish this moment as I hold

you in my arms

Making a bond that will

Stay solid, even through life’s harms

I love you so very much already

Our journey has only just begun

Daddy & Mommy will love you forever

You are our beautiful bright shining sun

 

Someday you’ll know

The depth of my love for you

Someday you’ll know

We saved each other

Someday you’ll know

The sleepless nights

Became for the right reason

Someday you’ll know

How God blessed us this season

In the night when you sleep,

Tell me, my boy, what do you see?

My son, do you dream?

Do you dream of iPads

Lined up playing

Your favorite Elmo videos?

Do you dream of Cookie Monster

And The Count

And Big Bird and Ernie and Bert?

Or do you dream of something more?

Do you talk in your dreams

Or do you dream at all?

Do you dream in color

Of the big world around you?

Does your imagination run wild

Of countless friends,

Playing at school,

Birthday parties,

Or do you dream of quiet solitude?

 

Are you happy?

Do you know there’s something more?

You are so smart,

You have to know…

 

My dreams for you are grand

I want to give you the world,

But is that what you want?

What do you dream of?

If for only one moment,

Bring me into your dreams

Show me what you want...

 

Are you happy?

Do you know there’s something more?

You are so smart,

You have to know…

 

Are you frustrated

By the lock and key?

Or do you feel free?

Are you content with the simple

Or do you want more?

Even now do you want me to hold you,

Or do you need your space?

Do you dream of a life

Beyond what you know?

Show me where you want to go...

 

Are you happy?

Do you know there’s something more?

You are so smart,

You have to know…

 

From the moment I knew of you,

I’ve loved you more than

You’ll ever know

I’ve had dreams for you

From the very beginning

Are they the same as your dreams?

When I watch you melt in tears,

My heart breaks over and over again.

Or when you scream in frustration,

I know what’s behind that

Behind every behavior,

There are big feelings consuming you.

Mommy imagines what it would be like

If I had something very important to say,

But my voice was held prisoner

My son, I see you and I hear you…

 

Every night I ask the higher power

Above just show me what is unseen,

To show me in a way that I cannot miss

My beautiful boy,

Take my hands in yours,

Close your eyes,

And show me your dreams

I will fight with every ounce

Of strength I have

To make them come true...

 

Are you happy?

Do you know there’s something more?

You are so smart,

You have to know…

 

Nothing is stronger than love

And nothing can break that bond

You are beautiful

Brighter that a shooting star

Keep on shining bright

And mommy will hold on tight...

[Verse 1]

Is it five ten yet mommy

Dinner should be served

I like things the way they are

I like time and places

And room three

I’m as perfect as can be

 

My little man,

Where did the time go

I’ve been busy

Watching you grow

Listening to you read

Watching you dance

Waiting for your smile

Oh, mommy just loves you

My little meat,

I’ll come to where you are

I promise I’ll never be far…

 

(Chorus)

I watch, I wait

I evaluate

I keep track of all

The little things

I supplicate

God, let me see the answers

Behind his way

Let me make his way

Easier ….

Let me give him all he needs

Show me today

Let the gates of heaven open up

And give him all his dreams

 

Please, show me today

 

[Verse 2]

You love Mario and Luigi

Princess Peach and toad

Ninety-nine percent is not enough

My boy, you need full charge

Plug in it

Play till your heart’s full

One hundred percent

Dance with mommy

Show me that beautiful grin

And that’ll be my win….

 

(Chorus repeat)

I watch, I wait

I evaluate

I keep track of all

The little things

I supplicate

God, let me see the answers

Behind his way

Let me make his way

Easier ….

Let me give him all he needs

Show me today

Let the gates of heaven open up

And give him all his dreams

 

Please, show me today

 

[Outro]

Where did the time go

How did you so fast grow

Just yesterday

You were small

You are so grown up now

You are so smart

You can do anything you

Set your heart to…

 

(Chorus repeat)

I watch, I wait

I evaluate

I keep track of all

The little things

I supplicate

God, let me see the answers

Behind his way

Let me make his way

Easier ….

Let me give him all he needs

Show me today

Let the gates of heaven open up

And give him all his dreams

 

Please, show me today

 

Oh my baby boy

My blue eyed little boy

I’ll fight for you always

I’ll be with you always

I’ll love you always

Snuggle in,

I’m here for the long run …

I’ll be here as the gates of heaven

 

Open up ….

[Verse 1]

Come back to me my sweet

Little baby girl

To the time when you had not

One big care in the world

When times were brighter

And lighter

And the weight of the day

Didn’t wind you tighter

 

Let me see that smile

Not hiding anything behind it

Let me hear that laugh

Not holding back tears one bit

Let me hold you as once before

So tiny in my arms

I could shield you and protect you

From all this world’s harms

 

[Chorus]

This world has not yet robbed you

Of every piece you shine

Although it blows so hard at times

But when you cry

My heart breaks each time

A little more inside

I see it all, I promise

I hope I see it all

To catch the chaos and emotion

Before it makes you fall…

 

[Verse 2]

You are so much more

Than even you see

A heart so full of love, reason to be

You are my gift from the God above

A precious little life

The first to teach me

unconditional love…

 

Mommy is not perfect

And neither do you have to be

You just have to be you

And that is perfect to me

Let me love you with all my might

Talk to me sweetheart

Don’t let your fears

keep you up at night…

 

[Chorus Repeat]

This world has not yet robbed you

Of every piece you shine

Although it blows so hard at times

But when you cry

My heart breaks each time

A little more inside

I see it all, I promise

I hope I see it all

To catch the chaos and emotion

Before it makes you fall…

 

[Verse 3]

You don’t have to wear your

Mask with me

We will walk together on this path

We will work through problems

Together, us two

Just like we do in class

With Math…

 

You are amazing and beautiful

And have so much to give

You don’t have to say it all at once

You don’t have to do it all at once

You have so much life to live

I am here with you I promise

In the light and in the dark

Don’t let the dark in

Don’t let it have its way

Hold up your chin…

 

[Chorus Repeat]

This world has not yet robbed you

Of every piece you shine

Although it blows so hard at times

But when you cry

My heart breaks each time

A little more inside

I see it all, I promise

I hope I see it all

To catch the chaos and emotion

Before it makes you fall

Before…

It makes you fall…

 

[Outro]

We fight as one

I promise it will be okay

Keep shining like the sun,

My love

My little girl now so grown up

Let Mommy help you

Teach you how to fill your cup

With beauty, all that is good

It’s already in you

In all that you do

I can’t take you back to simple times

No matter how hard I wish it to be

But I promise Mommy

Will walk beside you all eternity…

Every step of the way

 

It’s okay to go slow…

It gives me time to watch you glow….

[Verse 1]

To all my girls out there

It’s nine pm,

meet me at the bar

I’m ringing ya’ll

I’m making the call

I’m ready to dance

Hey, guys

We’re not looking for romance

I’m ready to sing

Put your dresses on

Slip on your bling

Let’s flaunt

Shake,

 

Shake…

What our mamas gave us

 

[Chorus]

I wanna make a tribute

To the nights before

Where all us girls

Hit the dance floor

No searching for love

When we danced so hard

All bets were off

Playing the wild card

Only there

For the beat and vibe

Time with my tribe

So, all my girls

Stay out till two with me

Let’s prove to these kids

We’ve still got it

We still can spin lids

Yeah they’re spinning

 

[Verse 2]

All I need is one night

To feel young again

Throwing all worries away

Yes that seat is taken

I don’t need

You to buy me a drink

I got my own

Step aside,

That barstool

Belongs to my crew

It’s a girls night out

No room for anything else

No complication

Only compilation

Of the years we’ve been

One of the girls

 

[Chorus]

I wanna make a tribute

To the nights before

Where all us girls

Hit the dance floor

No searching for love

When we danced so hard

All bets were off

Playing the wild card

Only there

For the beat and vibe

Time with my tribe

So, all my girls

Stay out till two with me

Let’s prove to these kids

We’ve still got it

We still can spin lids

Do you see them spinning

 

[Outro]

[Singing]

I’ve got you

I’ll watch your six

Just leave your cares

On that dance floor

Tomorrow

Will be filled with

Our regular things

Tonight is just about…

 

Making tribute

Reliving memories

Honoring our crew…

 

[Chorus]

I wanna make a tribute

To the nights before

Where all us girls

Hit the dance floor

No searching for love

When we danced so hard

All bets were off

Playing the wild card

Only there

For the beat and vibe

Time with my tribe

So, all my girls

Stay out till two with me

Let’s prove to these kids

We’ve still got it

We still can spin lids

You still see them spinning

 

Ooh ooh yeah,

We still rule this place

Even if just for tonight

Tonight is our night

 

It’s our girls night out …

[Verse 1]

Show me some grace

While I navigate this space

This life

Show me some grace

In the morning

When I wake

And it feels like today

Is yesterday

And yesterday

Is tomorrow, the next day

Show me some grace

When I choose not to fight

Each little battle

There are plenty enough

Along this flight

Enough for a lifetime

 

[Chorus]

Here I am

I’m not hiding

I’m a lot all

Wrapped into one

I’m a lion,

I’m a lamb

I think, then talk

I don’t wanna fight,

I want peace

But I have that piece

That ignites a fire

I have passion,

I have calm

I am strong,

I am fragile

I am human

Here I am

Standing in front of you

Not trying to be anyone else

But me

 

Show me grace

I am only me,

Please show me some grace …

 

[Verse 2]

Show me some grace

When I let the small slide

Knowing what is big

Is around the next bend

It doesn’t end

Show me some grace

When something is forgotten

Or something slips

Through the cracks

It was only a senseless act

Show me some grace

When my time is little

But there is much to do

I’m trying to fit it all in

My head is just spinning

Trying to be thick skinned

 

[Chorus]

Here I am

I’m not hiding

I’m a lot all

Wrapped into one

I’m a lion,

I’m a lamb

I think, then talk

I don’t wanna fight,

I want peace

But I have that piece

That ignites a fire

I have passion,

I have calm

I am strong,

I am fragile

I am human

Here I am

Standing in front of you

Not trying to be anyone else

But me

 

Show me grace

I am only me,

Please show me some grace …

 

[Bridge]

[Singing]

Show me some grace

When little tears fall

And I wipe them up

With my heart

They shred me up inside

Reason for them

May seem unseen, unnecessary

 

Trying to exhale

But to me,

There’s so much weighing

On the scale

I’ll praise the good

Hard can fall by the wayside

I am unmoved...

I have nothing to prove

 

[Chorus]

Here I am

I’m not hiding

I’m a lot all

Wrapped into one

I’m a lion,

I’m a lamb

I think, then talk

I don’t wanna fight,

I want peace

But I have that piece

That ignites a fire

I have passion,

I have calm

I am strong,

I am fragile

I am human

Here I am

Standing in front of you

Not trying to be anyone else

But me

 

Show me grace

I am only me,

Please show me some grace …

 

[Verse 3]

Show me some grace

When I’m quiet

My mind is nonstop

It doesn’t ever close shop

Sometimes

The tears spill

Out from inside

When all feels hard

When all feels like

Mountains to climb

This moment will pass

It won’t last

I will move forward

I will not break

There’s too much at stake

I am doing my best,

 

Kissing little foreheads

Saying little prayers

Wiping little tears

Washing away little cares

Silencing little fears …

 

[Bridge]

[Singing]

Show me some grace...

When I walk between

These two worlds …

Cushioning between

Bridging the distance

A world they were

Not meant for

And the proverbial “Neverland”

Hoping and praying

Each minute of every day

That I am doing enough

 

[Chorus]

Here I am

I’m not hiding

I’m a lot all

Wrapped into one

I’m a lion,

I’m a lamb

I think, then talk

I don’t wanna fight,

I want peace

But I have that piece

That ignites a fire

I have passion,

I have calm

I am strong,

I am fragile

I am human

Here I am

Standing in front of you

Not trying to be anyone else

But me

 

Show me grace

I am only me,

Please show me some grace …

 

I'm anticipating

Advocating

Loving above all else

In this fated space

I am only me

Show me grace

Please show me some grace....

 

 

[Verse 1]

Today, this weight

Feels crushing

Today I feel invisible in my skin

But my heart is crying out

For notice

For love

For compassion

Empathy

Anything

Just anything at all

Tired, still pushing

Pushing so hard

I just want to be loved

 

[Chorus]

I’d rather be alone

Than lonely

I’d rather have no one

Than someone

Who feels worlds away

I’d rather choose to do

This alone

Than be shown

I have to be strong

All along

My strength waning

Instead fragile claiming

My soul

 

[Verse 2]

The things important

Are piling up

They are there from the

Moment I wake up

A day of “to do’s”

Like they were never done

Before

I watch you drive away

Walk away

Doing and planning life

Here I stay

This house is my safe

But it’s also my prison

I don't know

What is family anyway ….

 

[Chorus]

I’d rather be alone

Than lonely

I’d rather have no one

Than someone

Who feels worlds away

I’d rather choose to do

This alone

Than be shown

I have to be strong

All along

My strength waning

Instead fragile claiming

My soul

 

[Verse 3]

I try to see good

Try to accept what is

Try to make the best of things

But I feel so alone

I have a fighting spirit

But sometimes all I want is peace

Some days my heart screams

I just don’t want to do this alone

I’m so tired of being alone

I am just so tired…

Of being alone …

 

[Bridge]

[Singing]

How can I be so important

And invisible all at once

No one can replace me

And yet I feel unseen

One minute I’m soaring

The next I’m gasping for breath

I’m so tired of being alone

I am just so tired of

Doing this alone…

 

[Chorus]

I’d rather be alone

Than lonely

I’d rather have no one

Than someone

Who feels worlds away

I’d rather choose to do

This alone

Than be shown

I have to be strong

All along

My strength waning

Instead fragile claiming

My soul

 

[Tender Singing]

I don't want to be here again

My heart is begging

I love you so much

I want connection

Affection

I don't want this world

To pull us apart

 

[Singing]

We speak our love language

In different ways

I'm a fire

You are the calm to the storm

I just want to feel the warmth

I want to feel alive

We only live this life once

Need me, hold me

Please, I don't want to be alone

I don't want to feel lonely

I don't want to be in this place

I don't want to be here again

 

[Chorus]

I’d rather be alone

Than lonely

I’d rather have no one

Than someone

Who feels worlds away

I’d rather choose to do

This alone

Than be shown

I have to be strong

All along

My strength waning

Instead fragile claiming

My soul

 

Stay with me here

I don’t want to be alone

Stay in this moment with me

Please, I don’t want to be alone

Here again